Full-Blown Agony: A Personal Struggle Against the Mysterious Suffering of Cluster Headache Syndrome

It began on a dreary weekday morning in the autumn of 2016. I worked as a educator, attempting to manage a new group of students, when a intense sensation erupted behind my one eye. Then came rapid shocks, similar to lightning bolts. As the school day progressed, the pain subsided and then came back with increased intensity. Multiple times that day I handed over a teaching assistant with worksheets and ran to the school bathroom to douse my face with cool water. I tried aspirin, but the pain remained unrelenting.

The attacks returned frequently that autumn, and again in the spring, soon establishing an annual cycle. The autumn months were the worst, then February and March. I could anticipate the pattern: a warning sensation in the morning, early twinges on the train, full-on agony in the classroom by mid-morning. In 2019, a GP eventually referred me to a neurologist and I was given a diagnosis with cluster headaches.

This condition often begin with intense pain around one eye that lasts up to several hours.

About one in 1,000 individuals suffer by the disorder, and men are more often diagnosed. Attacks typically begin with abrupt, excruciating pain around one eye that peaks within minutes and continues for up to three hours. Episodes come in clusters, daily or multiple times a day, and are accompanied by red or watery eyes, sagging eyelids or facial sweating. There exists an episodic type, which occurs in seasonal bouts; others have chronic attacks, characterized by the lack of extended symptom-free periods.

What unites sufferers is the severity. One research paper scored the sensation at 9.7 out of 10, higher than bone fractures or other conditions. A separate discovered a significant percentage of cluster headache patients reported thoughts of self-harm amid attacks; the figure fell to 4% when they were pain-free.

Val Hobbs, in her seventies, a chronic patient from Wales, finds this understandable. Her episodes started when she was two. “I would hurl myself on the ground and bang my head. That was attributed to being spoiled,” she says. Her symptoms deteriorated through childhood. Alcohol in her teens, similar to many causes, made things more intense. After drinking alcohol at her graduation party, she recalls barely being able to see on the transport home.

Her family often interpreted her episodes as drunken episodes. Understanding eventually came from her father and then from her partner, Rod. “I was very lucky to find such an exceptional person,” she says. Hobbs took clerical work after moving, but often hid her condition. She was dismissed from one job, partly due to time off during attacks. Her breakthrough diagnosis came in the early 2000s at a national neurology center.

Still, the failure to plan life around unpredictable attacks took its toll. She particularly disliked being unable to plan social events, being seen as flaky as a colleague, and even having to be looked after by her family during the incapacitation caused by the most severe episodes. “It robs you of the simple freedoms we don't value until they're gone,” she says. She recalls obtaining tickets for a significant concert, only to have an attack inside a portable toilet.


Headaches have been documented throughout the ages. “The earliest account of headache comes by way of the ancient civilizations in antiquity,” write experts in a publication on the subject. They attributed the ailment to an evil spirit who attacked his victims' heads.

Historical medical records propose unusual treatments for what some experts would classify as a migraine. In the middle ages, migraine was recognised as a separate disorder, with therapies ranging from bloodletting to other, more superstitious remedies.

It was a Dutch physician who provided the initial comprehensive account of a cluster-type attack. In his medical observations, he describes a patient “afflicted with a very severe headache occurring and disappearing each day at specific hours”.

The disorder were only officially classified by international medical societies in the late 1980s. From the 1960s to the late 1990s, they were thought to be caused by a problem with a major blood vessel that delivers blood to the head. Prominent specialists in diagnosing the condition note this.

In 1998, researchers published the findings of a research project for which they had induced cluster headaches in patients and monitored the attacks in a imaging machine. The results, published in a major journal, showed activation of the a brain region, which is responsible for human sleep-wake cycles, when patients were in pain, and a deactivation when they recovered.

In spite of such advances, diagnosis remains slow. Jamie Charteris's symptoms started in 1986 and felt like “a balloon being blown up behind my one eye”. Doctors thought he had sinus problems; he underwent four operations before finally being correctly identified in 2014, after a doctor researched his complaints.

Neurologists say delays in diagnosis and treatment occur because patients are seldom seen during an episode. “You're exhausted and depressed, but not in severe pain,” one says. He works by ruling out other common headache conditions, such as tension-type headache, before confirming the disorder. A detailed patient history is crucial: on which side do signs appear? For how long? What time of year? Are there precipitating factors, such as certain foods? Certain characteristics such as tearing, sagging eyelids and stuffy nose help verify the diagnosis. Once diagnosed, patients may be referred to specialist clinics. But many first go to A&E or are given inadequate therapies.

A charity trustee, in her late seventies, has suffered from cluster headaches for the majority of her adult life, although she has been free from an attack since 2016. When she was in her twenties, she had her molars extracted because dental professionals misinterpreted her pain. She believes the dental profession still need greater awareness. When a sufferer sought help from a support group, it was she who responded. The author recalls calling a helpline during an bout in early 2021; a reassuring volunteer guided me through oxygen treatment and medication until the episode passed.

Official guidelines on treatment advise that patients are offered high-flow oxygen therapy and/or a specific medication administered by injection. No oral painkillers or strong analgesics should be used. Prophylactic choices include a blood pressure medication, which apparently helps manage the attacks of well-known individuals.

But consultant neurologists argue the guidance need revising to reflect a more defined treatment process and help GPs avoid misprescribing. For periodic patients, the treatment window is critical: “The duration of the cycle dictates the approach.” Brief bouts with occasional episodes are managed with abortive therapy only. Longer or more severe bouts require preventives such as verapamil, sometimes combined with corticosteroids. Many patients also receive a greater occipital nerve block during a cycle – an procedure into the area of the head where the pain is that decreases nerve activity.

The national guidance need revising to reflect a
Mary Ortiz
Mary Ortiz

A seasoned media journalist with over a decade of experience covering entertainment and cultural trends across the UK.

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